This gallery shows images of me when I was between 20-24 years of age. While I was very serious about perusing a career in modeling and fashion design, by the time these pictures were taken however, I had already been molested as a child, raped twice as a minor and had been assaulted. While there was concern for me and advice for me to receive counseling, I never got the help I needed, not till many years later. As a way to cope, I became an alcoholic and hard drug user. Even though these images may not show it, they are the halfway point of my 13-year drug and alcohol addiction.
In those years, I was still able to drink and use on a semi-social basis, though things turned from “fun” to necessity quicker than I realized. My whole world collapsed because of my own poor choices
and because of the people I associated with. Looking at these pictures is not easy because I see a person who really tried to succeed and wanted to get away from a bad life.
Had I known how hard I had to work to get my life back and the struggle I would have go through, I don’t think I would have taken the chances that I have. Drug and alcohol abuse destroyed all that I ever wanted to be in those years.
Today, I understand that I owe a tremendous debt of gratitude some really terrific people who took a chance on me and gave me a new start. I keep those people in my thoughts and my prayers each day.